Sunday, May 31, 2009

"Dream of what you most enjoy
Go where you want to go
Be whom you want to be
You have but one life
To achieve what you want to achieve"

Crystal. wake up.

No more excuses, no more procrastination, no more delays.
It doesn't feel like it, but its the June holidays already, but this time, i feel like going back to school, to go through the same boring days, to study really hard like i used to. Cos i know that once that stops, i wouln't be able to keep up when sch starts, i wouln't enjoy living through the days that i once don't mind having.
This June holidays, i'm not gonna waste anymore time, doing aimless and useless things.

I'm gonna revise and not forget what i've just learnt this pass mnths, they were tough, but nth else comes in my way cos it had already been overcomed. I'm gonna jog, gain back my stamina, speed, no matter what, i won't wait, i will just go on and on and on... till i can't go anymore.

I want to feel the sense of accomplishment like i used to feel when i was being pushed so hard during bball trngs, i want to reply with a sense of pride that what i have and what i am came from hardwork when people tell me that i improved, i want everyone to know that i have achieved something admirable, I want to run like the wind like i used to be able to, I want to fly high like an eagle that soars through the sky, I want to feel tall and full of confident like i used to.

But why's that all gone now?
I feel useless, I feel weak, I feel slow. I feel like what i had is all gone now. Why? Cos seeing others achieve, and seeing them exhausting their hearts out, and seeing myself not doing those things, i feel wasted, i feel that all my efforts i've put in are all thrown down the drain. I can't even keep up, I can't hold on, I can't make it through the pain.

But nothing's gonna bring me down. Not all of these. Not any of these.
I can go higher, I can go deeper.
I can and will push myself to my limits.
Because, for me, there are no boundaries.

;8:58 PM